If Melbourne were a person, I want him to know that I love him at the first sight.

If Melbourne were a person, I want him to know I would have marry him and spend the rest of my life with him. 

The love I have for him since our first sight, I knew it was real. It started to grow day by day. We treasure every moment we had with good and bad things that happened.

If Melbourne were a person, I want him to know he is perfect but still he has flaws. And that is okay.

Flaws in terms of unpleasant experience I encounter which I refused to carry on through out my life. Just like any other relationship, if you had an argument and unpleasant moment with your partner, you should leave those in the past. So does, Melbourne. I refused to look at the tiny imperfections he has, instead I am focusing on those amazing qualities in him.

If Melbourne were a person, it consist of both; physical and soul. What makes me fall for him not that only the ‘physcial’ part, rather I chose him as a whole.

The person I met, the places I went, the things that I did, the journey I had, the crazy weather I experienced, the hardship I faced, the cultured that I immersed, the interactions I made with people, things and places.. That’s what makes Melbourne, Melbourne. And that the reason why I fall for Melbourne so hard! Aside from he’s physically charming, attractive, calm, loveable characteristic.

The moment I met Melbourne, I believed we will be in adventurous and fun journey. He has the characteristic I look for a partner and I wish I could live in those moments forever. Nothing in my past ‘love’ experience, someone had ever makes me so happy and complete as much as Melbourne did. Even when I was with Melbourne, I met other person such as Tasmania, Brisbane and Sydney. Although I might have slightly fling over Sydney, but nothing can compete the ‘charming Melbourne’, and my true love for him remain the same.

But me being rational, I know there will be an end for this but I refused to think while I was with Melbourne and let it happened until its time. The day came, and I had to separate with Melbourne. That was one of the worst day in my life.

A lot of people who knew my passion and love towards Melbourne kept on telling me that they believed I will come back to Melbourne soon. For that time, it will be for longer duration than it was. I doubt myself honestly. Doubt in sense of.. Could I get the chance to meet him again? How to meet him? What if I’m not good enough for Melbourne?

What if Melbourne changed? What if Melbourne isn’t the same person that I used to know? What if those qualities that made Melbourne, Melbourne has long gone while he’s waiting for me? Like the people I knew previously will be no longer there? I do think it will somehow make Melbourne, less Melbourne. But doesn’t mean I stop loving him.

Every single day when we’re apart, I keep on thinking for the day when I can finally meet him again. But I am not interested to meet him for short visit. I am serious, I wanted to finally reunite with him and settle down. So that we can do things together and spent my life with through out thick and thin. Thought of having short visit to see him, I guess it will just hurt me more knowing that we still need to be separated at the airport, the moment I step into the flight which will take me away from him.

I guess Melbourne is doing fine now, and I can see the ‘people’ qualities of him started to change. People who I used to know back then are forgetting me slowly. Communication getting slower. And there’s nothing I can do about that. But other qualities such as the culture, the places, weather are still the same I guess. That’s good enough though.

Things will not be the same again with him in the future, and I know that. For future it could happen to be better or even worse, I don’t know.

Even now I temporarily separated with Melbourne, I have always care about him. Keeping up with his wellbeing. I always tell other people only the good thing about him. How he made me feel, how amazing he was, how I wish I don’t have to be apart from him. Most people know how deep is my love for him and how excited I am to be able to see him again someday.

For now, it is okay, he got to do what he needs to do, what the best for him. He might change, but I believe he’ll change for what is the best for himself. I will always, always support him even though it could happen that I might no longer fit in one day.

I wish Melbourne is a person so that I can come back and marry Melbourne one day.

"Yeah I know I know it's over but
I guess that's just the way it has to be
Sometime in the future maybe we can get together,
maybe share a drink and talk awhile
And reminisce about the days when we were still together
Maybe somewhere further down the line
And I will meet you there
Sometime in the future we can share our stories
But until that day comes along I'll keep on moving on.
I'll keep on moving on"

Let me introduce to you,

Found this video on on Facebook.

My life is getting busier than ever! Life happens. So many things coming my way. but I do like it. I like it when can occupy my time doing something! Be more productive. Despite those hectic days I encounter everyday, put up with classes, assignments, people, but I am glad for now I can make a room for my own development by being part of Incoming Global Citizen Program (IGCP), AIESEC. It is not easy though. But it non of that matters since it’s my inner courage to be part of it. So what exactly IGCP thing?

Well let me explain in very simple explanation, IGCP is one of the department in AIESEC (what is aisec?) which responsible for creating a project (social/volunteer project) and the participants are anyone from all over the world. 

Why we do this? 

Simply as we want to create world is better place! Encourage volunteerism and support youth development! 

So do I get paid for this? NO! 

so why would I invest my time & energy for this? 
Again, volunteering is one of my passion. I want to ‘give’ as much as possible. I have seen how "exchange program" can give such a great impact on one's life! my life for instance!

why through AIESEC? 

Well.. because I like the culture? AIESEC is special, I see the values & how worth it is.. from my point of view.

Ya.. enough with the simple questions & answers.

So.. All I need is to be balance. I need to take care of my time management, emotional balance and my physical well being. It is not an easy task to be multitasking but then, hey that is how our world works, no? I have come across this one video on Facebook “Busy vs Productive”, which I couldn’t retrieve it at this moment. Heh. I try my best to be Productive instead of ‘busy’, because in the end, being busy without the best quality work as the outcome, I would say, such a waste.

Being busy, or in other words, having so many things to do such a great idea to keep myself distracted. And of course it does makes me easily to get tired. Let it be mentally or physically. Because when we are multitasking things, we need to think a lot. To keep updated, there are just too many things happening in this amazing creature, call brain. So when I am physically tired, most of the time it’s easier for me to fall asleep compare to the last time.

How to keep shits together? Let’s hope this Motivation is driven along the way!